Crush

There are those moments when you’re least expected and when you’re not prepared at all, it happened.

I felt a warm and sudden throb went through my heart.

I was smiling and looking at his side cheeks when he squinted his eyes and wrinkled a little his forehead. He just missed few notes and made a soft roar sound. What exactly I am not sure. It was an indescribable moment. Maybe it’s the music, maybe it’s the light, maybe it’s his facial expression, maybe it’s his voice..

It’s something I’ve never experienced before. A crush.

I used to take lightly on others’ crushes. Not that I am not appreciative the feelings of others. I thought those moments can just come and go and leave no traces in one’s life. Eventually, we all move on and continue our journey.

Now I can see how people can hold on that particular movement and make a relationship flourished. My heart still feels that throb as I recall that moment. The thought of that moment still brings flushes to my faces.

We’re still alone travelling on our journey. There are those moments make you see yourself in a whole new way and see the world from a very different view. In the next 1000 days, his existence will probably impact me in a biologically-imbalanced way. Although I don’t think I am courageous enough to display my feelings, it will definitely be a beautiful secret.

By touching you may kill,

by keeping away you may possess.

Rabindranath Tagore